It's funny to see my mind flat out try to deny things that I know are true. I can literally feel myself failing to accept and acknowledge a truth. It must be a way for my body to try and protect me from something hurtful. If I don't accept it than it's not true. Silly mind.
Why does my mind think it has that kind of control? Why does it think it can affect "what is" through shear will?
If only I could sit down into the truth and accept it for what it is and then get my mind to leave it behind as a fact. I feel like that is the only solution. Accept this undesirable thing and leave it where it is. No reason to drag it along, feeling it kick me in the butt repeatedly and wondering where that kick is coming from.
I know where the kick is coming from. I know I'm dragging it along, asking "please sir, may I have another" and yet I can't get my mind to give up. Drop it, leave it behind. I don't need the extra weight, pain or stress.
I'm trying to snuggle my silly, confused mind with some loving-kindness and an open heart but it just keeps running around in circles desperately looking for an escape from what is.
It's okay mind. There's no way out. This is what is. That's all. No imminent danger, just this. Allow it and sit with it and be set free.
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