Funny how our minds work. The way they learn the patterns they do and how they imprint them deeper and deeper as time goes on. We all have our own ways of being. Our ways of perceiving the world. Our goods and bads, likes and dislikes. It amazes me that something I enjoy and love can cause another suffering, stress and anxiety and vice versa. We humans are so strange.
I've been working lately on trying to question my habits and ways of being. Questioning my aversion to things and trying to approach things with a more open mind without preset thoughts and perceptions. Not an easy thing to do but it seems so valuable. I so often just perpetuate my already entrenched believes, thoughts, and ways of being without questioning them or looking at the emotions they bring up. Where did these believes and reactions come from? How did they start and why are they perpetuated? Why do certain things bring up anxiety and fear for me?
It's interesting in that the more I do this, the more I can see the patterns and even see there origin. Some are more recent, newly developed ways of feeling that have come about over the past few years, while others feel like they have been there forever. So even in a new country, with new people, and new situations, I have unwarranted believes, feelings, and impulses that are obviously conditioned.
It's amazing to see this and then reflect on the fact that everyone in the world is this way. We all have a certain degree of auto pilot (some more than others) that dictates how we interact with the world and the people around us. Makes me more compassionate of the way people are and the things they can do that can harm me or cause me suffering. Things that could very well not even relate to me, so much as be a result of their conditioning and past.
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