My Brain is Tired

Anyone who has sat in meditation for any amount of time, can't help but wonder how one's brain can run so constantly. Doesn't it get tired. Doesn't it ever need a little break.

I feel like just watching be brain bounce around all day is enough to exhaust me. Especially since it's often coming and going repetitively between the same things. I feel like I need to pat my brain on the shoulder and ask her if she would like to take a seat, rest for a while and have a cold lemonade. It's seems so mean to sit in meditation and see my mind running around wild without being able to help. Most of the teachings I've read or heard talk about just letting whatever be, be. So letting my mind run around wild and just seeing it's craziness for what it is, is supposedly the practice.

It just seems so tiring. Maybe that's where exercise, yoga and other activities that bring your focus and awareness to your body are important. Being able to exhaust your body somehow allows your mind a little reprieve from the constant diligence.

It's also funny to see how much effort and energy my mind puts into contemplating things and problems that it has absolutely no influence or control over. If I could figure out a way to have my mind only consider issues that I can directly affect, I would be the most productive person in the world. All that time wasted trying to figure out a riddle without an answer. The only answer is to let things be and accept whatever comes. How can something so simple, and seemingly so easy be so difficult?

Allowing, accepting, and working with whatever comes up. If only my mind could understand this concept. It's actually a relief because it is saying that truly, you don't have to deal with x, y or z until it shows up on your doorstep. In fact, forget about it, procrastinate away until and if it actually materializes. 

Letting go

Letting go of anything is difficult. We all grasp so tightly to that which we think will bring us happiness. Giving up seems like a failure when really it's just accepting what is rather than fighting it.

Giving up on people is especially hard. Maybe that is the wrong wording....not giving up on people but letting go of your expectations of who or what they should do and be. There is a strong sense of release from letting go of hope and expectation. It's the first step to being present in the moment and being with what is.

I spend so much time hoping, planning, and desiring for the future rather than accepting and being with the now. Allowing my thoughts, time and energy to be devoted to someone else rather than devoting them to myself.

Meditation and physical exercise are two powerful ways I can devote time and energy to me and my growth, happiness and development. By turning my love and support to myself I can empower myself to give more fully to others and the outside world.

So letting go of that which I continually grasp for and finding peace and happiness within myself and with myself.