As much as I know that everything I need and will ever need is inside me, I constantly am seeking comfort outside myself. A cup of coffee, a tasty treat, a good book, anything to distract me from my mind and the current moment. Even meditation, yoga and the like seem to become distractions at times. My ego gets pumped up when I meditate and feels all spiritual and proud. I seek spiritual literature and groups to help me feel like I'm accomplishing something. Why is everything about grasping, getting, improving, obtaining? Why can't I just be? Be content and happy as is? Why do humans find that so hard? I have moments of content acceptance but they flit away so quickly.
A read a Buddhist sign talking about gluttony and the negatives of eating for pleasure. It saddened me because I do love food. But I can see the point that if one is attached to tasty food, one can easily spend a lifetime seeking out new tasty foods and will likely become obese as well.
All things in moderation....and without attachment. I'm not sure I believe in non attachment. I see the value in reducing suffering by acknowledging and knowing that all things pass and end. So any attachment will bring pain. But part of attaching is accepting this fact. Maybe it can be seen as non attachment if you can just accept that it will pass and are willing to allow this without adding suffering and struggle upon it? Is that what non attachment is? Or is it truly not wanting anything to maintain.
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