Sitting with It

This idea of sitting with what is, seems to me to be one of the most profound and yet one of most important lessons I could ever learn. It helps to be in a place where there is no other option but regardless it does allow me to see that all things pass. This pain, this pleasure, this moment, all pass away leaving me here in it's path.

If I can choose to sit and be with it, experience it with all the good, bad, delicious, and yucky....I can see that I none of this is who I am and none of it will forever remain. I can see my reactions, feel my reactions and let them too pass. It's never easy but it is slowly becoming habit to see and experience these emotions rather than be swept blindly away by them.

I know that I have a habit of seeing the world as a dangerous place and a source of suffering. The problem is that this view then gets reflected back at me and this is what the world hands over. I question when positive things come my way. Instead of graciously accepting them, fearing their lose and clinging to them mercilessly. Especially with love. This feeling of not deserving or disbelief that I can have something this good cause me to push it away and lose it in the end.

I have been working with counteracting these negative thoughts and views of the world. I do think it will take time and rather than regretting the past, I need to just learn my lessons and look to new opportunity.