To "let oneself go" is a negative thing in the west. It means you've been slacking on your hygeine, beauty and general self-control. But truly to let oneself go is the path to enlightenment, right? It is turning outward to the world and letting go of this idea of seperate self. The self that we all so desperatley protect and yield to constantly.
I know that the few times when I do let myself go and completely direct my attention, effort, etc. outward is when I am at my happiest and most fufilled. It happens with children, puppies, patients at work, close friends and lovers. I am most stressed and sad when I am fearful of injury to self. When I am guarded and scared of being ridiculed or injured. Is it possible for me to let myself go when I usually put up walls to protect myself?
I think so, it will just take practice. These habits are long ingrained.
Learning to let myself go is my new resolution. Doesn't mean I'm going to pack on the pounds or stop my beauty routine but I am going to consciously give up protecting my little self and let it all in. The good, the bad and the ugly.
I'm going to start by just being aware of to what degree my little self is putting up the guards. Check in and see where my attention is, outward or inward.....usually some combination of both.
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